Before I started this blog, I had another blog where I anonymously wrote about sobriety and recovery. When I decided to not be anonymous anymore, I started with a fresh blog and this is the first post I wrote. Side note: the blogger/author I’m talking about is Glennon Doyle Melton at Momastery.

It’s Nature Karen

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I was struck dumb by envy a few days ago. One of my favorite bloggers released an excerpt from her new book and I couldn’t wait to read it. As I soaked up every word, my excitement turned to a sick feeling of discouragement. The excerpt was so awesome. It was everything I would write it if I could write like her. She was reading my mind! But instead of feeling understood and encouraged, I felt a sinking feeling that she’s saying everything I’ve ever wanted to say better than I can say it. Why bother to write at all? The best words have been taken.

As I was reeling from the disappointment and wrestling with feelings of ineptitude, I saw a bee walk across my floor. Bees love our yard and if we leave a door open for any amount of time, one is bound to…

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6 thoughts on “Buzz

  1. YES!! Thank you so much for reposting this! I have been feeling that oh-so-familiar nudge and just last night I was thinking, “But that’s already been done,” and “What is there left that I can do?” I needed to read this today. God is pushing me toward something better and I have to stop letting ego push me back. If you don’t mind, I’d like to reblog this over at GD&T because “I need dis” today.


  2. I can totally relate to this. and, also, as a big fan of Glennon’s blog, I feel alternately (and sometimes simultaneously) envy, jealousy, motivation, joy, you name it. Trying to see the envy and jealousy as signs of things that I really want for myself and then what can I do along those paths.
    ALSO, wanted to say that each of us who reads your blog reads it because we love it, no matter how many followers you have.


    1. Thank you Marie! It’s not about collecting followers but about cultivating readership and forming connections between people. All it takes is one person to comment and say, “Me too!” Sharing experiences through writing and reading is meaningful and I don’t ever forget that. I’m so glad to have connected with you Marie!


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